Facebook Thoughts

This was my facebook status yesterday:

"I'm going to be honest, I didn't think any more great black men existed! But a message I received today totally changed my mind on that. Ladies, stop saying there are no good black men left! They are out there, we just have to keep searching, be open, and willing to work with them. And if your search brings you to a man that has been hiding in a cave, be willing to knock some cobwebs off of him! =)"

Im Soooooo Serious about it this time guys!!!

My road to changing my life will begin on January 1, 2011. I will not be the same person at the end of my journey! Please support me you guys! This is NOT a resolution.... this is a promise to myself and my future! I'm all IN!!!

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Did HE Seriously Try 2 Give Me Relationship Advice??!??!??

So I'm on the phone with one of the guys who broke my heart in the past. Why? Looooooong story :\ Anywho, somehow we get on the topic of me having children. I quickly shut that discussion DoWn! As of right now, I dont see myself having kids. So he says "Why not?" And I say "Because I've shut down... I don't want to have sex anymore, and don't see myself getting married so that means no kids for me!"

I guess he saw this as his perfect opportunity to let me know just how little I actually meant to him while we were f*cK!nG <- so the truth because there was ABSOLUTELY no commitment! He fires back "Aww, I hope you dont feel like that because of me.... I believe God will make someone for you... I mean someone who actually likes you"

I could tell that he felt so proud of himself. like this statement would just make my day! NOT!! What I took from that statement was "I mean, I couldn't stand you, and I really dont see any other man on the planet being able to put up with you either, so God's gotta make somebody who can do it!" 

[P.S.: he goes on to ask "what ever happened to that one guy who liked you? where is he?"] (o_O)

First of all: I dont appreciate the over-glorification of relationships! Just because im sans-Man doesnt mean i'm lonely!!! 

Secondly: Kids aint for everyone....i mean, some of us just shouldnt procreate!

Third: Why is HE, of all people, trying to give me advice/encouragement about relationships?!??!? He f*cked me over major, and not because I was all in love (because I honestly dont think i was) but because he knew he never wanted to pursue a relationship with me, but strung me along long enough to get a girlfriend that met his standards, then left me in the dust!

In the past I have been hurt by guys. Even though I've never been in a relationship, I've allowed myself to be used up by men (and I regret it every day of my life!). I don't think that any of these fellas should be extending friendship to me after doing me that way and they mos def shouldn't be commenting on my relationship status!!!